prepare to be let down.

Haven’t bothered to update this for some time, wow. I failed my driving test, going again on the 28th of this month and I have had a girlfriend for 2 weeks now. Melinda is amazing, I’m quite smitten already. Haven’t liked a girl this genuinely in a while, It’s such a good feeling. Going to see Nowayout on Friday night at the Princess theatre, then go home and cuddle Melinda. Work is so shit, I know I keep saying I’m going to get a new job and I really am going to, just sucks cause I didn’t get my license and that messed up my plans big time. My hairs been slowly growing back, I actually like it right now. The length that is. Dunno what to do with it though, keep it short or what. It’s going to end up like an afro, I’ll need to get it layered as soon as it’s long enough. Going to eat some cereal.

dirty man.

Hairs growing slowly, the scabs from Jordan cutting my head up are all pretty much gone and I’m growing a mean moustache at the moment. I’m actually thinking about keeping my hair this short, it’s grown on me. People I serve at work seem slightly intimidated by me now too, it’s cool. They’re like, “Argh, he’s not an emo, muslim looking kid anymore!”. I hate that people always mistake me for being an Asian or something bad like that. I’m a fucking kiwi. Dad was half Maori and mums as white as anything. No gook or fucking Arab in me, fuck off. I’m not a racist but fuck, it isn’t something you wanna take on the chin after years of people being like, “Hm, you’re not Asian or Filipino are you?”. Like they’re some kind of disease. No, I’m a kiwi. Feel free to crack sheep fucking jokes. Just don’t mistake me for anything else.

So my driving test nears. It’s on Tuesday. I’m pretty nervous. I told myself I wouldn’t be but you really can’t help it hey. Nothing else new, works still fucking me in the arse with a gian strap on. I’m now being forced to work 5-6 nights a week. Our assistant manager Peter went to another site, so we’re waiting for a replacement and Karen broke her leg. So basically, there’s Dan, Aaron, Tim, Tammy and myself. 5 of us, running a 24 7 servo. It’s fucked. I’m so tired, I should of slept more today and I got work in an hour and a half.

freezing head.

I couldn’t have picked a worse time to trust Casey with cutting my hair, resulting in me having to go skinhead. It’s so bloody cold outside and you bet your arse I’m feeling it on my noggin. My cars getting detailed and touched up at Grandads work, heaps stoked that I got it. Driving test in exactly 10 more days. I’m really nervous haha, I don’t wanna fail on the first go. I’m too cheap for that! I haven’t really been up to much this week, trying to save my money so I can buy shit for the car, like better seat/steering wheel covers. I wanna get the windows tinted black  in the next week or two aswell. Have not stopped listening to For the Fallen Dreams new release either, it’s amazing.

soggy.

So I’m bald and cold right now. Last night, got a bit drunk with friends and Jordan shaved my head. It’s actually growing on me now, I kind of like it. I’m starting to look for another job, finally. I’ve got 13 more days until my driving test. Got my car a couple days ago. Pop picked up a silver Lancer Coupe, 95 model. It’s not a bad car at all to be honest. I’m going to have the windows tinted black asap haha, then it’ll look badass. I miss Melinda, I’m over everything else in my life at the moment.

memories.

Having the most nostalgic day, honestly. I just watched, ‘Dazed and Confused’. It was one of those movies I watched when I was younger while mum was out, cause it was about partying and sex haha. It’s soundtrack would pretty much be perfect to just slap over footage of me growing up, that is if I had any. Mum was shit and could never afford a video camera. I know it’s just cause she didn’t know how to use one.

I’m sick right now, it’s bloody awful but I think I’ll be right for tomorrow night. Really keen to see the Hollow at Snitch and have a few drinks with friends. My driving test is exactly 20 days away. 30th of June.  I should of just said I’d do it somewhere else other then Sherwood, then it would of been a lot sooner. I was just thinking, “Sure, pick the closest place!”. I can’t wait to smash that test and finally be able to drive everywhere.

set the standard.

Had a great night out last night. Drank, danced and chilled with mates. The usual Thursday night. I need some direction, this isn’t a good way to spend my youth haha. I seriously can’t wait for Left 4 Dead 2. Holy shit! Well, it’s really boring without Danny here anymore. No more abo conversations, getting maccas at 3am just cause, man love. Ah, the list goes on. I don’t have much else to write about. Last night STP and Against played, Provoke pulled out. Was pretty disappointed with that. Despite their opinion of me, I really enjoy seeing STP play. They’re like our very own Recon, deadset. They’re going to go far as far as Aussie hardcores concerned, they have such strong support already, it’s good to see the reaction they’re getting.

burn this city.

Where to begin. The awesome night last night, or the terrible morning we had to wake up to. Danny is officially not living with me anymore, mum threw him out cause she’s impatient and doesn’t understand that there is a recession right now and his agency has fuck all work for for anyone. It’s so gay, I thought I was getting sick of the cunt, always hogging my computer, not giving me any privacy when I needed it etc but like, It’s gonna suck not having him here anymore. I know he’ll be better off at his mum and dads though, my mums a headcase.

Haha anyways, last night was pretty fun. Danny and I drove into the city to see the HTP boys play at Rosies. Lance is a  good friend and I gotta say, him and the other lads were pretty bloody good last night haha. Actually really enjoyed seeing them play. Also, got to see Basa for the first time in weeks. He looked incredibly fresh as always and had some good stories to tell me about things down in Sydney; about girls mainly.

Finally got my RSA scanned and put onto my resume, I think I’ll hit up a few bottleo’s/pubs in the nearby areas for a job, so over this one and holy shit, ultimate fuck up today. I worked about 149 hours this fortnight, I fucking counted. I got paid for 76. I’m going to seriously fucking shit a brick if someone can’t fix this, I didn’t cover for two of them other dead shits for multiple nights just to get my pay fucked around like this. Total bullshit.

Last but not least, biggest, most uplifting news. Left 4 Dead 2. I pretty much came and shit myself simultaneously when I saw the trailer, it looks brilliant. The release really came as a surprise to me though, so soon after the first one has only been out for about 6 months. Didn’t take them long, I’m so stoked for it! Here’s the trailer that pretty much blew my balls out my mouth.

downer.

Did nothing all day. Really disappointing that I never do anything on weekends anymore. It’s not like I really can anyways, I work 9pm to 6am both nights, sometimes Friday too. So over it! I’ve basically cleaned my room and sat on my arse all afternoone and now I’m dreading another fucking shift at my shitty servo. It’s not all that bad, I guess. Last night went pretty smoothly, the highlight was reading a picture mag and learning a new derogatory term for attractive girls; nut emptier. Haha, I pissed myself when I read it, fuck they say some funny shit in those mags. I get in trouble for reading them on the job though. If I was reading New Idea or something, even Zoo, it’s okay. Just not any nudey ones. Which is total bullshit, cause it’s not like I don’t hide the magazine when a customer comes in. Eh, head office is fucked in the head.

Got a big week planned, meeting some people here and there, hanging with mates, buy Resident Evil 5 or anything better that comes up when I check out some stores on Thursday night. Pay day! It’s going to be huge, I worked like 8 shifts in a row this fortnight and like another 3 on top of that, can’t wait to see how much I worked. I know exactly how many hours I did too, so Imma definitley punch some throats if my pay is any less than $1300-1400.

I’m about to have dinner. Mum never cooks when Jason, (Her boyfriend) is here. I think that’s cute. He’s short as fuck and cooks some mean tucker. I need to learn how to cook.

fuck my company!

I hate my company! So last night I had a really, really good night alongside my boss Tim. We bonded, had a good yarn about life and shit. All in all, it was good. But! I found out, I can’t even use my current job at that servo as a reference! Tim said head office and himself aren’t allowed to disclose any infortmation about me, like performance wise and shit. All they can tell other employers is that I work there. Fucked up! How am I meant to get a second job without a good reference from them! All my other jobs would only have shit stuff to say about me, haha. “Fired for using mobile phone!”, “Stopped turning up one day!”, “Swore constantly in the work place!”, etc. So disappointed!

Been playing Left 4 Dead non-stop. Best game, honestly. It is so scary! Play it on the hardest difficulty and get the shit kicked out of you! It’s so fucked up! Danny has pink eye. I’d be willing to bet money on it being from all the times I have been completely naked and farted like 5 cms from his face. Yep, gave the poor cunt pink eye, because shit particles get in your eyes and bam, you got pink eye.

The other day we went in and saw Wade at Wild at Heart. He seemed pretty keen to draw up mine and Dannys ideas, so that made me happy. I gotta hit him back up in like a fortnight to see how it’s coming along. Working tonight and tomorrow night, then I’m free til Friday-Saturday. Thank fuck. I worked so many nights this last week cause of stock take and one of the girls quitting. This pay day is gonna be insane, but I’m definitley knackered from it, haven’t had a decent sleep in ages. I miss Lacie and I’m craving egg nog.

same old.

I’m getting weaker with every passing day, I swear. I need a day job, fuck these hours I work. They’re draining every bit of energy and happiness out of me and if I don’t find something enjoyable and better paying soon I’m gonna have a midlife crisis at 19. So, Danny and I are downloading Left 4 Dead. It looks like the best game, I love zombie shoot ‘em ups. Fun fun, can’t wait to play it. Going to go look at tattoos today at Wades, maybe buy a shirt or something. Need more black. I used to have too much black in my wardrobe, now it’s all white and bright shit haha. Been spending loads of time with Lacie, she’s great. Danny likes her too, then again, Danny likes every girl.

Nearly lost my job the other day. Somehow I lost another $200. This time it was $215 and there’s absolutely no way I could of lost it. I swear someones setting it up, cause I didn’t steal it and I’ve been crazy, on the ball at work since the first time that happened. Doesn’t make sense. Pretty much hating on that job and everyone I have to put on a front to there. They’re all so derro and fat. Fuck Freedom Fuels servos. I will burn the place to the motherfucking ground, honestly.

Also, I gotta say! I’m fucking in love with Bury Your Dead’s new album, ‘Its nothing personal’. Fuck, it is so good! Yeah, Mykes vocals are still going in that ‘Howard Jones from Killswitch’ direction, but intrumentally? They were just as aggressive and heavy sounding as ever. I haven’t stopped listening to it. Get your hands on a copy, so fuckin good.